39 Weeks

I am in full cleaning mode today... besides you know... blogging at the moment. :) I'm hoping to make my body at least think about going into labor. I don't even think it's thought about it yet.

RJ had to work all weekend so it has just been me, loafing around and not doing much of anything. I wanted to go for a walk but I was afraid that my water would break or something and I would be all alone.

So cross your fingers that something will happen this week because I reeeeeaaallly don't want to be induced. I don't know why and I will definitely do it if they think that it is the best but I really want to go into labor myself and see what that is all about.

We'll see... I don't really care at this point how she gets out... I'm just ready to meet her.

I've been thinking the last couple of weeks about how much I appreciate my life and how often I think that my life couldn't get any worse when in reality... I am pretty blessed.

RJ has been such an amazing person through this whole pregnancy. He asks just enough questions, he googles my odd symptoms late at night, and he doesn't complain when I fall asleep during a movie for the eight millionth time. I love that he cares about me and the baby and that he is excited about having this baby as much as I am.

I am also happy to have such a caring and generous family and job that allows me to be able to go to all of my appointments and be a grouch when I don't feel well. I cannot thank my family enough for all of the "little" things they have just picked up for us because they care. I love them so much and I think they're just as excited to meet the baby as RJ and I are. 

I'm just so excited to start this next chapter. So..... little J.... Let's get this show on the road. :D 

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38 Weeks!

Happy New Year Everyone! 

We spent New Years Eve sleeping and threatening death upon the neighbor's dog that wouldn't stop barking. We're quite the partiers. I'm already excited for NYE next year! Hopefully it'll make up for the duds we were this year. 

 

I have been feeling soooooo pregnant this week. I'm hoping she stays cuddled up in there just a little bit longer though. This week is crazy for RJ and I both at work and I just don't know what I would do if she came before Monday. I'll gladly accept her whenever she comes... but kid... next Monday would be better than this weekend. Just sayin.... ") 

 

How far along? 38 Weeks & 4 Days

Total weight gain: At my last appointment, which was last Wednesday I had gained one more lb. 
 
Maternity clothes? oh yes, and there is really only one pair of pants that I have the energy to squeeze into. And they're not the cutest pair of pants either. 
 
Stretch marks? 1 teensy tiny one.... I will cherish it forever... unless it invites it's friends before this is over. Then I shall be pissed.

Sleep: I swear that night time is the only time the kid wants to be active. So sleep... so long. 

Best moment this week: being able to nibble on all the holiday goodies and hide it with my big belly. I won't be able to do that for much longer. :) Also packing my and the baby's hospital bags... that got me pretty excited... and nervous.
 
Miss Anything? feeling the slightest bit attractive and wearing normal clothes, I miss the smaller, less puffy version of myself.

Movement: very active on her terms. She'll stay up all night and then snooze all day which gets me a little worried sometimes. But then night will come and she'll perk right up. 
 
Food cravings: sweets! I was hoping to avoid wanting sweets but... ce la vie. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything! Still throwing up quite a bit. Especially if I overeat. 

Gender: Girl! And I ordered the cutest little headbands that I hope will get here soon. :) 
 
Labor Signs: Lots of cramping and some stomach pain that I think are either Braxton Hicks or real contractions. I really have no idea at this point. 
 
Symptoms: lots of pain in my stomach from where her head moves around plus my fingers and toes get a little swollen and puffy at night. Let me tell you.... it's sexy. 

Belly Button in or out? out

Wedding rings on or off? on
 
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy but very tired most of the time. 
 
Looking forward to: D-Day! SO ready for her arrival!!!! :)

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37 Weeks

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas or whatever holiday you celebrate. :)

 

As much as I loved it, I am excited for it to be over so that our kid can finally make it's way into the world. You cannot imagine how incredibly impatient I have gotten. I am generally very patient and can wait things out, but I am so ready to meet our baby that I am going crazy sitting around waiting.

 

I think it's finally hitting me what this is going to do to me from here on out.
The other day as I was driving it really hit me... I'm going to be a parent soon. Seriously... Am I old enough to be a parent? How does that even happen. haha. I am definitely excited and ready, but the word parent definitely throws me off guard.

I really couldn't be more thrilled, It'll just take a few more days or year or decades to sink in I'm sure.

 

I am ready to meet this little baby of mine that has been kicking me in the ribs for the past month.
It's weird knowing that there is a little person in there and that pretty soon she'll be ours forever. It's amazing how much I care for the little thing even though I haven't met her yet. I worry about her and care about her and it's crazy to think that I already want what is best for her. I can't imagine what it is going to be like once she's here and growing up.

 

I didn't realize that I could care for someone so much already. I am ready to meet her and get going on all the fun things we're going to do. Like tea parties. We're definitely having a million of those.

 

 

 

 

This was at our Deters Family Christmas party on Sunday. Everyone says I still look so small, but I definitely feel huge and baby girl in there is just the right size and weight so I'm grateful that I haven't gotten immensely huge and uncomfortable. Yet.

 

 

These were at the doctor's office last week. I waited while he went up and delivered a baby so me and the kid chilled in the office and watched YouTube videos on my phone. I definitely think my face is getting puffy and showing the preggie glow.

 

 

RJ is beside himself impatient about getting this show on the road. He's ready to meet his baby and start loving her like I already have. It's hard for him to still imagine there's a baby in there because she doesn't move very much when he puts his hands on my belly. So needless to say, he's ready to be part of all the excitement.

 

 

Last but not least, an awesome work bathroom picture showcasing the big bump. :) This shirt shows off that I do indeed have a big belly that I am trying to balance around the place.

 

As for the fun things...

 

How Far Along?

37 weeks and 3 days

 

Total Weight Gain?

23.5 lbs as of last Tuesday

 

Maternity Clothes?

Yes, definitely shirts and I'm still sort of fitting into my pants.

My belly dropped a few days ago and it's definitely harder to button them up.

 

Stretch Marks?
There is only one that I have noticed so far and it's pretty light... I'm hoping it stays that way.

 

Sleep?

I haven't slept terribly this last week, but it definitely hasn't been good either. I have been a lot more tired this week. Growing a baby is tiring business.

 

Best Moment this Week?
I had pretty good Braxton Hicks contractions last Saturday and I was so hoping that it was actual labor. No go, but it still got me really excited. Oh and going over to LDS Hospital and just finding out where we need to go when things do start going down. I imagined myself waddling in and causing a stir. I can't wait!

 

Miss Anything?

Being the smaller version of myself and not feeling tired.

 

Movement?

TONS! of movement this week. She's either whipping her head around and gouging me in the lady bits or her feet are doing a little tap dance on my ribs. I love feeling her moving around although it's not very comfortable. It gives me peace of mind knowing she's still chillin in there and doing good.

 

Food Cravings?

Nope... Barfing more than ever this week so nothing sounds good. I can honestly say I haven't had really any cravings this whole pregnancy. I spent the majority trying to keep food down, not thinking about what was going in.

 

Anything make you sick or queasy?

Everything.

 

Gender?

Girl

 

Labor Signs?
I have had a lot of cramping and Braxton Hicks off and on, but I don't think there's been any real labor signs. Which is a big bummer.

 

Symptoms?

Uncomfortable... and more uncomfortable-ness. The biggest has been cramping and pain in my ribs from her feet constantly being there. I have a hard time sitting or laying for more than two minutes in the same position and lots of pressure in my stomach. I have also been really nauseous this week.

 

Belly Button in or out?

Out

 

Wedding Rings on or off?

On, but finally tight.

 

Happy or Moody most of the time?

Pretty moody this week to be honest. It's just uncomfortable all the stinkin time.

 

Looking forward to?

Going into real labor and my appointment today to see if I'm dilated at all!

I'll keep you posted.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



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35 Weeks

Today is the 13th of December so hopefully by the next 13th we will have a baby!

A lot has gone on this month which is why I am a little behind on blogging.

Plus things have been pretty much the same as far as being pregnant goes. Nothing new, just cooking the kid waiting and waiting until she finally is ready.

 

My sweet grandma passed away a couple of weeks ago. The funeral was hard but I know that she is no longer in pain and it was a great memorial and way to remember how wonderful she was and what an honor it was to be her grandchild.

 

Then only about a week later, my brother and sister-in-law had their baby!

 

Meet Hyrum Lance Deters.

 

All fresh and new.

One day old.

 

He's a squashy little guy but he looks adorable. I can't wait to go up and meet him this weekend.

My sister in law Nicole was a champ through labor and delivery. I got a text at about noon saying that they were at the hospital and by 9:30 that night I got a call from my brother telling me that he was finally a dad! It was th sweetest thing ever and I am so excited for them.

 

As for RJ and I, we're just loafing around the house not doing too much.

 

We put up our Christmas decorations and hung lights on our house which we've been telling ourselves we'll do every year but never do.

I only had a little preggie meltdown over this so I consider it a success.

 

 

I love when my parents visit because they bring their adorable little dog that loves to growl and snuggle at the same time. She's adorable and always has the cutest little hairbows in her hair.

 

Our dogs weren't so cute and cuddly. They like to go outside and hang out and smell up our house. So baths are now in order about once a week. They love it!

 

 

I have about the best husband ever. He painted my right hand for me for my grandma's funeral. He does a good job surprisingly enough. :)

Although I still can't get him to shave my legs (even though I am completely capable) or go get me Gatorade at one in the morning.

haha. Even if I tell him that I am carrying his child.

 

 

This guy greeted me at work the other morning. It was a fun little surprise. Brought a little bit of Idaho right to work. I loved it.

 

 

I had my baby shower! I could have completely forgotten about it except for all the adorable clothes and blankets bursting out of the nursery. It was a hectic weekend because that is the weekend my grandma passed away, but it was bittersweet and not all bad since we celebrated someone's life and someone coming into our life very soon.

I am so thankful for my family that came and how generous and loving all of them were. I got a lot of beautiful and thoughtful gifts along with gifts that I am going to be so thankful I have.

 

 

As for being pregnant... this was a couple weeks ago but it looks about the same so just pretend this is an up to date picture. :)

 

How far along are you?

35 weeks and 4 days

 

Total Weight Gain?

I actually forgot to look at my last appointment so I'll know again at my next appointment on Tuesday. I think it's around 20lbs though.

 

Maternity Clothes?

If I don't wear them, I feel like a giant whale trying to squeeze into tiny clothes, but I am still wearing the same pants. I'm down to only a few that fit, but I'm going with it.

 

Stretch Marks?

Not yet, but the skin on my stomach is starting to look really transparent and I am just crossing my fingers that none pop up in the next couple of weeks. I think this might be too good to be true though.

 

Sleep?

Not bad actually. I get up to pee around 3:30 every morning but go right back to bed. My dreams have been pretty weird lately, but it hasn't affected my sleeping.

 

Best Moment this Week?

Having Lance's baby get here made me so excited to see my own little kid and see what RJ and I have created. haha. His baby has Lance's nose and Nicole's eyes and I can't wait to see what features our kid got. Probably all the worst qualities I'm sure. :D

 

Miss Anything?

I am craving an awesome abs workout. I have tried to stay away from any core workouts because when my abs get sore it hurts for days and I can never get comfortable. But I think a good sweaty workout will do the trick.

 

Movement?

Lots of leg kicks and hiccups. I felt bad because I drank a big glass of lemonade the other day on an empty stomach and she had hiccups for such a long time! Poor thing.

 

Anything make you sick or queasy?

This last weekend wasn't so good to me. I threw up a few times in the middle of the night. I am not sure if I was sick or if I ate something bad but it wasn't the best night's sleep I've ever had.

 

Food Cravings?

Gatorade... weird I know.

 

Gender?

GIRL! We had an ultrasound last Friday and asked the lady if she could check but she didn't even try. She was not the most pleasant lady I've ever met to say the least. Gracious lady, you look at babies all day, you'd think she'd have been happier.

 

Labor Signs?

My stomach will tighten up sometimes but other than that nothing.
At my last appointment the doctor checked to see if she was head down though and she is! She's just fattening up and then she'll be ready to go in a few more weeks. :)

 

Symptoms?
My ribs get jabbed almost constantly but other than that I haven't had too many symptoms the last couple of weeks. It's been great.

 

Belly button in or out?

More out than in!

 

Wedding rings on or off?

On

 

Happy or Moody most of the time?

Happy and Excited

 

Looking forward to?

Buying a car seat this week and going to see Lance's baby.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



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Thankful

This year I have so much to be thankful for. 

I can't even start to write out everything that goes through my mind and everything that I couldn't go a day without. 

I think the biggest thing that I am thankful for this year is family. 

I have family redefined to me all the time and this year has been no exception. There hasn't been a month that has gone by that my family hasn't pleasantly surprised me and shown me so much love and support. 

So much has happened this year and it's been quite the emotional roller coaster. But despite many hard and sad things that I've had to go through I know that I have the best thing to look forward to next year. 

It amazes me how much I already love my little baby so much. How much I could care for something that I have never seen or met. It has definitely re-instilled my faith in things that you cannot see.

Even though something is not there to touch or look at, you can definitely love it. I already want so much for my little family. 

As I was peeling potatoes last night I thought, while I'm peeling potatoes next year I'm going to have an almost one year old girl trying to get into the pots and pans and I should definitely get in the habit of sweeping my kitchen floor more often. 

I thought of how it probably wouldn't go as smoothly next year and that Thanksgiving preparations wouldn't be so quick, but I didn't have one sense of dread or sympathy for myself and for my lost independence. RJ and I are more than ready to have our little family be together and all I can feel is calm. 

I'm thankful that this baby has taught me to have a little more faith in things you cannot see. 

Another thing that I am thankful for is being taught that life is precious. 

 

I've always adored my grandma and looked up to her. She is a wonderful lady that cooks better than anyone I personally know and she is a shining example of selflessness. She raised a big family and a lot of times didn't have any help. Every Sunday growing up she would cook dinner for the entire family and I have never heard her complain or talk bad about a single person. Not once.

Since my grandma's health hasn't been the best the last few months my grandma went to live with my parents and my mom has been caring for her. I have loved every second of getting to know my grandma all over again and even though she doesn't realize what she is saying or understand what I am saying back, when she tells me she loves me, I believe her. 

My grandma won't always be around to give hugs and kisses to, but I know that she'll still be watching over me and she'll always be in my heart helping me to be a better person, just from knowing her. 

I am thankful that she has taught me that you need to give love to those you care about because they won't always be around to do so.

 

Another thing I have to be thankful for is wonderful siblings. 

I didn't realize how hard it would be to not be able to talk to one of them whenever I want to. 

Lindsey has taught me so much in the last few weeks that she's been gone. 

She's taught me that you stick with the decisions you make, even when they're tough. 

She's taught me that loving someone means loving them no matter where they are or how far away. 

She also has taught me that I'm a big baby when it comes to change. I just want her to run back home and tell me that she's never leaving my side again. haha. 

The other person in this picture is my cousin Brandon. He taught me a lot the day that we dropped Lindsey off at the MTC. He promised her before they left that he would be there to see her get dropped off. Good on his promise, he was standing there waiting for us to get there. As soon as we got out to say goodbye, looking into his eyes was one of the hardest things that I have ever done. They were so torn. Torn between wanting to do what he knows is right for him and also missing his family so bad that it hurts. He showed me that sometimes you have to make sacrifices in order to be a better person.

I would be extremely ungrateful if I didn't have so much gratitude for RJ. 

The more time I spend with him and the more we grow up, the more I've learned that I couldn't have possibly found someone better for me than him. 

I have never really believed that there is just one person out there in the world destined for another. I figure you could easily live and love anyone you choose.

But on the other hand, I feel like we're a match made in heaven.
I couldn't possibly love someone more than I love him. 

The love he has shown me in the last year's time is enough to make any person feel like they have everything.

Learning that we're going to be parents was one of the scariest things for us as a couple and RJ has never batted an eyelash at the thought of our lives changing. He has treated me like gold and I know he'll do the same for our kid. 

This year I'm feeling very grateful for the people in my life. I struggle a lot not knowing what the future holds and why some things have to be so difficult, but I know that with the people I have in my life I can make it through anything. 

Happy Thanksgiving! 

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