I Guess You Could Call It Love

April = Busy.

 

Busy at work... busy at school... busy with baby... busy with emotions.

 

I am just realizing that I have to take life one day at a time to survive. I could probably sleep for a week straight if there were no interuptions and I cry almost everytime I fail a math quiz at school, but things are looking up.

 

It's really a catch, because on one hand I want Jocelyn to get growing up so we can do awesome things together and teach her new things. But on the other hand, I never want her out of this adorable baby phase where she'll cuddle with me and coo til her heart's content.

 

 

I am loving her at three months. She's getting so social and interactive and I love playing with her after work. She's just so happy with everything around her and I can't get enough of her smiles.

 

 

This being a mom business has been the easiest thing to transition to that I have ever had to do. Living and marrying RJ was pretty easy too, but I love being a mom to this little thing. Getting up in the middle of the night is hard. But she can't help when she's not tired or needs her diaper changed... so I can't get mad at her sweet little face. Even when I want to be.

 

 

She is soooo easy going. I think she gets that from her dad. She watches tv like nobody's business and will laugh and yell at the tv until everyone around cracks up laughing. She loves sleeping in RJ and I's bed in the morning. She'll wake up in her crib cooing and fussy and then you'll put her in bed with us and she'll snuggle up and she'll fall right back to sleep or crack a bunch of smiles and just lay there content.

 

 

I already can't imagine her moving out someday. I want her to stay in my arms forever. Hopefully her sassy attitude will change my mind when she's a teenager.

 

 

I love that I have such good support around me. My family has been so wonderful babysitting and loving her. I love being able to gush about her to all of them and they know how I feel. And Jocelyn loves them as much as they love her. She'll always give a big smile for them when she sees them.

 

 

 

I don't think anybody loves her as much as her dad does. He'll peek-a-boo with her for hours. If he ever thought he was a badass... he was wrong. His heart is goo when it comes to her.

 

Although he does ignore her screaming in the middle of the night.... He just waits until I can't take it any longer. :D

 

 

I never thought having a baby would be so good for me.

I have grown and learned many a lesson in the last three months that have changed my way of thinking and how I react to certain situations.

 

Like becoming a puddle of tears everytime a family based commercial or video plays... I'm still blaming the hormones. :)

 

I feel like the last few months have been hell, but also the best time of our lives. We have been through some really tough situations and endured a lot of days where we didn't want to feel or have any emotions at all. And I feel like it's just finally starting to look up. But J has made those hard days good. She's there cuddling with you, or watching you and I just can't help but feel good.

 

 

I feel lucky to call her and her 80 million dirty diapers a day all mine.