SiXtEeN!

I thought I should get started on my 16 week post. A lot has changed this week and I want to make sure I remember every second so that I can hold it over my teenagers head when they're being brats. :)

And by changes I mean MY BODY!?!?

I will be the first to admit. I have body image issues. I have a hard time finding happiness in what I was given and I'm never toned, skinny, tan, etc... for myself. It has gotten better in the last couple of years but still not in the mindset I ultimately want to be in.

That being said, I just want to throw it out there, that I never wish to pass that trait along to my children. I want them to accept themselves for who they are and while I'm going to teach them a healthy lifestyle, they will never ever know that I am not less than perfectly happy with my body and they will never hear me utter degrading words about myself. Self image is such a difficult thing to change once it has been damaged and I don't want to be someone that creates doubt in my children's mind.

Now that I've jumped off my soapbox, I have gotten HUGE! I swear one day I was thinking I was going to smooth sail my way through this pregnancy wearing the exact same jeans I wore back when I learned I was pregnant and the next day I'm crying as I put on my most loose dress and pretended that I'm wearing it because I just felt like being dressy.

It's so hard because I don't feel like I've gotten any bigger and you definitely still can't tell I'm pregnant, but my body has changed so much. I am excited for the changes and I know that means that I am progressing and growing that little peanut inside of me, but that doesn't make getting dressed in the morning any less depressing. If yoga pants were acceptable to go to work, I can't say I wouldn't wear them everyday... but alas, they are not allowed so I have resorted to the rubberband trick for now. I'm waiting for my mom to come down from Idaho to go to one of those fancy maternity stores with me and give me the emotional support I'm going to need to buy pants that have that big elastic band in the front. I just don't think RJ will cut it on that outing.

Also, speaking of RJ. I know I talk about him a lot. It's either him or this kid because that is what my life consists of right now. RJ has been so great through this. He was so anti having a baby and I was afraid that if I got pregnant that he would be resentful or resistant to the change but after the stick was peed on and he got a few deep breaths in, he has absolutely been wonderful. He has embraced this change and is so excited and supportive. Of course he teases me when I cry over not fitting into my pants and he can't wait until he can call me fat in public and I won't slap him. But he has been so good at letting me be sick and lay on the couch for hours at a time. He lets me go to bed at 8:30 and doesn't pressure me to mountain bike with him. He has been so loving and supportive and I really would rather not ever be without him.

My one complaint about RJ is that he won't go to Fetal Fotos with me and find out what the gender is so that we know a few weeks early. He absolutely thinks it's a waste of money and ridiculous to only find out 2 weeks in advance when our insurance will pay for us to find out in such a short time. He is no fun and such a practical jerk. :) I didn't speak to him the other day because of this... until he put dinner in front of me and then I had to forgive him.

Anway... onto my little survey :) I will post a picture later on tonight.

How Far Along Are You:

16 weeks this last Sunday

 

Total weight gain/loss: 

I am not sure since I haven't weighed myself since my last appointment, but I have definitely grown a lot this week in the belly department so my guess is I've gained a little bit.

Maternity clothes?

Not yet, but I did buy a shirt the other day with the intention that the belly could expand.

And I'm hoping my mom will rescue me soon and take me to get some fat pants.

Stretch marks?

I haven't noticed any yet. I've been slathering my stomach with lotion every night before bed though. Just in case.

 

Sleep:

The dreams have been less often which is good, but I just can't ever get comfortable.

Best moment this week:

Finding out we could go to Fetal Fotos and find out what the kid is...

but RJ put the kibosh on that.

Miss Anything?

Feeling skinny.

Movement:

No :( I am impatiently waiting though. I am hoping in the next couple weeks. Last week I thought I had but I don't think it was actually movement.

Food cravings:

 Nope, but I'm still barfing up spaghetti every time I eat it. I don't barf with anything else, just spaghetti.

Anything making you queasy or sick:

Spaghetti & RJ's cologne still smells disgusting to me.

Have you started to show yet: 

Definitely more this week! It's starting to poke out more.  

Gender prediction:

Back to no idea. I am so excited either way.

Labor Signs:

Nada

Belly Button in or out?

In

 

Wedding rings on or off?

On and loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time:

Happy :)

Looking forward to:

Feeling the movement of the baby and it start to kick.